No use for a title...

I don't blog much. I probably should.
Warning: I'm on my cell phone, so details might lack, and I will probably sound cynical.
Today is my birthday. I'm 31 today. One year ago, my life was pretty good. I was distressed about losing my career job, and was stressed at finding out what to do. Now... a year later, and it's hard not to see more ruins. No more girl (2 years down the drain), best friend pretty much abandoned me... No real explanations from either (both explanations were vague by definition). I can't help but rack-my-brain as to how this happened; how I got here. Funny... most of my friends know how much I love hardcore. Why can't I be "hardcore" about this? Not take this nonsense? I've determined if you are kind hearted, even your so-called friends will shit on you, even for no reason. I'm aggressive, but I'm also kind; genuine and caring. The most-high God made me this way. I'm not going to thwart that. I like that about me; what God gave to me. In other words, I'm not changing that. But I am extremely disappointed in my life. I'm extremely disappointed with my friends. Almost all of them. The good friends know who they are, I've told them this. And before someone reads this and gets offended, try reasoning with yourself and ask your heart if you have been and I'm wrong about this. In a Bronx Tale, there's a character named Sonny. One of his famous quotes is "nobody cares". More and more every day, I think he's right. Funny that some of the people who've been the most kind to me are non-Christians. Figure that one... Given, I probably got the best present of my life this morning, and my parents are starting to support my decisions, I know I have a lot to be thankful for. But as for my friends, I am mostly hurt and disappointed. In the most difficult time of my life, I've been abandoned by you; left to fend for myself. Thank the LORD I'm not a Christian because of other Christians. I've been so mistreated by the people I cared most about this year. I hope 31 will be better than 30. I hope things will be different. I hope the LORD will provide. I hope for hope.
A very hurt,
Danny P.